It's About to Be a What? Girl Fight!

So anyone that knows me probably could've guess that I would be blogging about this today. 

Hello, my name is Jaded Radiance. I'm 23 years old and I got into a fight on Friday. 

Who the fuck fights at 23? I'm so ashamed of myself. In my defense, the girls who started the fight were ghetto* (clearly), so we're just going to say that I was defending myself... because saying that "I got into a fight," makes it seem like it was a conscious decision. 

And instead of rehashing the way it went down (my group of girls got into a fight with another group of girls) I want to talk about an interesting response I got. 

Well maybe not interesting, but I've been harping on the double standards between men and women for about 3 months now. For some reason it took me 23 years to realize that there's a whole bunch of shit that I can't (or am "not supposed" to) do in this world, that niggas can do and it frustrates me. Fighting being the latest discovery. 

It's not that I condone violence or think it's cute. Fighting is a terrible way to spend 35 seconds to two minutes of your life (I don't think I've ever seen a fight longer than that). But why did I get scolded by three of my male friends about "how bad it made me look" and how "you should have never been fighting, you look stupid." 

Aggression is not one of my more prominent personality traits, if it even is one. So why the hell were people coming at me like I was just as bad as the other girl who started the fight? Everyone that knows me, knows that I'm not a fighter, that I'm classy, and I know how to use my words. So why did guys feel the need to tell me that "you shouldn't be fighting." Don't they think I know that? 

But as I said, I asked one of them, "If I were a dude would it have been okay?" In response I got a non-meditated yes each time I asked.  Which is what I expected because apparently niggas can do everything short of killing a nigga (and even we'd look worse at the same murder scene) and still be cool. However, this time I switched up my follow up question. Because I know asking questions like "How come boys can do it and I can't?" only yields responses like, "because you're a girl," "because men have to be men, and women have to be women," and other stupid shit that only makes sense to men. I switched up the question and asked what it is that I really don't understand about double standards, "How come I'm supposed to know better, but niggas don't have to know better?" Still nothing. 

One day I'm going to understand this. In the mean time, I'm realizing that I should've been raised more with my mother and not my father and brother because I'm not understanding "my place" in this world... and I don't think I ever will want to. 

**I hate using the term ghetto but there's no other way to describe girls who think fighting is cute and after the fight is over, challenge you to meet them in the parking lot like this is Crenshaw High at 2:30 or in their case LA Jordan cuz that's where at least two of them went.